I only have a day left after tonight, and I am on a jet plane to NC and it is one of the most important trips in my life. I am also excited as anything to be back in the presence of NASCAR. I mean I am in my house, but not like I am there.

Today was a roughone. I just have not felt really great. battleing a bit of BG stuff. Mostly lowes but ther was one high (rebound) got up to 206 but that was pretty easy to take care of. just a snack and abolus and I am back to 128. Just has beenone of them days I dont feel really great. Chest is a little tight and I am very tired. been runnignmy butt off.

I had my clothes washer re-delivery. Instead of getting the same washer back with repairs, I got a brand NEW washer. I did not know they were goign to send me a brand new one. Must not have been able to fix that one bought. I do not ever seeing myself buying a used appliance again, but this one was worthit. I saved about $300. The new H2's are $800, I got this one for $500. So taht works. But the pain in the ass hastle was a bit much and think next time I am just going to get what I want.

That was probly the best part of my day. teh other part was a Endo apointment and it went allot better this time. the Endo was not such a butthead, so I will keep him for a little while longer.

I am hurting a bit right now. Probly just tired as all get out.

One thing that has beenon my mind for the last few days and I just have been thinking about it allot. is taht sometimes being tough is not easy as it seems. I am not just tooting my horn when I say I am tough, hav been all my life. just rowdy and do things straight forward, learn to live witht he scrapes and such.

But this being tough can have it's drawbacks. Sometimes when this way, people dont know or you yourself dont understand or know your hurting. then when they see it or you see it, it is pretty great and scares the hell out of others. I just grit it a little more and either the hurt goes away, or I get used to it. It will probly bite me in the ass one day, but then I do belive that is called destiny. LOL

I think I have been hurting for a while. See when I hurt and can ignore it or just dont know it and put it in the back of my mind, the pain will get worse and then it goes to other parts of my body. Right now my shoulders and hans and feet and everythign feel like they dont have blood flowing to them. it smarts. i think I will take a asprin and a darvocet and go to bed earlyer than I usealy do. Wake up tomarrow and go to work for the last day in awhile, then come home, pack my stuff and get out of here Wed morning early and dot he airport thing all day. Damn I wish I could just go now! Bet I sleep really good just getting the trip part over and knowign I am finaly there.

Figured I shoudl blog just before I leave, I have been lax in doign so lately. And this time I PROMIS I will blog about the NC trip. ~Laughes~ I said I woudl last time and it kind of got away from me. I'll have more pic and a good blog entery for you guys this time. ~Smiles~

I wish you well

Robert